I’m not sure what, exactly brings it on but it seems that when I have a lot or too much to do concerning authorities and others who want things from me, I really feel my mother’s absence and I get so sad, it’s almost unbearable!
I feel as though, what’s the point? Why always owe so much to so many? Is this what’s left? G-d forbid, I sure hope there’s more than debts! Holidays are hard being alone. I especially miss my son and his family at these times moreso than on regular days. I’m invited to a family for Pesach that I’ve never met. The man who invited me seems to strongly fear or dislike dogs, yet my dog is also invited (to stay in the playroom). I think I better make certain that it’s alright with his wife, as well and that there REALLY is no problem with bringing Pnina. If it’s a big problem, I might make my own Pesach Seder and stay home. Sad.